Sunday, May 8, 2016

Mothers Day 2016

My sweet babies.

I'm so thankful that I get to be your mommy. I'm thankful that I get to see both you experience everything for the first time. In thankful for every laugh, every smile, every time you look up at me with your bright eyes. I'm also thankful for the times when there are tears. Even though it breaks my heart to see you both cry, I know it means you are learning and growing. And I'm so thankful that I get to be your safe space when you are sad. I'm thankful that I am here to hold you and love on you and teach you. 

The both of you have made me a mommy. It's the greatest most important job in the whole world. I cherish every single moment I spend with you.being your mommy has made me whole and complete. I couldn't imagine doing anything else with my life. I'm so thankful to you both and your daddy for giving me the greatest job there is. 

We had so much fun on my first Mother's Day to two precious babies.

Monday, March 28, 2016

March 28, 2016

My sweet sweet girls. I love you both more than words can say. 

Today aunt sis took hadley to the aquarium. She had so much fun! She saw a mermaid and was so excited to tell her that she wore her buzz light year shirt! 😂 
She also told me that Santa wasn't at the aquarium. She said he was in the chimney at our new house!

Ella had to take a trip to the doctor this afternoon for a diaper rash that will not go away! She did so good and played during all of the waiting that takes place at the dr... It looks like we have a lot of nakey baby time ahead of us! 

Then we met aunt sissy and Hadley at the park. Hadley played hide and seek and Ella loved being outside in the sun. It was such a warm pretty day today.

I'm so thankful for both of you beautiful smart girls. It's so fun to find the beauty in the everyday parts of life. 

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Doughnuts for Dads

On Wednesday Hadley had doughnuts for dads at school. 

Daddy got to take her to school, walk her in, have doughnuts and play in the classroom with her! 

He said when y'all got there, you grabbed him by the hand and said, "I'll take you inside daddy". Soooo sweet!! I wish that I could have been there to play with y'all and see you so proud to show off the school that you love to your daddy!

He said you proudly walked him in until you got in the hall and looked at all the people and then up at him and said "hold  you!"  Y'all dropped your backpack off, picked up some doughnuts and OJ and went back to your classroom to play. 
He said you are the doughnut in about three seconds and then starting showing off your favorite toys. A camera and dump truck topped the list. 

You started taking photos of everyone and everything! 

Your friends Wils and Elle came in with their daddy and you pulled up a chair next to them and sat while they are their doughnuts! 

When it was time for daddy to leave, you started to get upset and wanted to him to sing hush little baby! So he sang it and then gave you to ms heather. 

Daddy had so much fun and I was pretty jealous that I didn't get to go! I have to wait until May for Muffins for Moms!!

When I picked you up, ms Shannon said she gave you an m&m after daddy left and it made you feel better!

She also said that you went potty at school!! She gave you another m&m and celebrated you at circle time! I am sooo proud of you!!!!! 

This Year

Each new year brings new beginnings. A chance to reevaluate your life and see what things need to change and what things you need to keep on keepin on with. It is my hope for both of you that you will take the start of a new year to really think about your life. To think about where you have been and where you are going. It's so nice to take the time and think about you. Go to a coffee shop or your favorite corner with a journal and sit down with your thoughts. Make a list of your goals for the next year and what you are happy with from the previous year.

I also want you to remember that you don't have to wait for a new year to start over. If things aren't going the way you think they should go, start over right then. Give yourself the ability to see when you need a change and the courage to actually make that change. I will always be there to support both of you no matter what. Your dad and I want the absolute best for both of you. We will be your biggest cheerleaders. And we will always be there for you to discuss changes and future plans with. We want to talk to you about every single thing in your life and give you whatever information we can to better your life. Or be there with open arms waiting to listen.
A girl that I went to school with (Austin Boatwright) wrote the following words on her blog. She said everything so beautifully and so perfectly. It's something that I want both of you to read and take to heart. 

Lean in 

By: Austin Boatwright
January 4, 2016

What if 2016 is greater than any Adele love song? The kind of love song you want to listen to on repeat with the high hope that enough replays will earn you front row seats to her performance.

This year: Sing all the words. Start the kitchen dance party. Whatever you are hoping for in someone else-- get out there and figure out how to do it yourself. Define your own brave. Write out your plans. Set goals. Or write nothing at all. Just don’t hold back. 

2016This year: Maybe you should download the dating app. Don’t take it too seriously but make yourself available to laugh and meet someone new. You might go on an awful one. You might meet someone who brings you silly balloon giraffes and keeps knocking on your door. You gotta risk it for the biscuit, right? 

You can't really be sure how life is going to work. You can’t read the last page and then decide if it is worth the meat in the middle. You draw breaths in and out. You crawl away from the sheets too early in the morning. You send emails. You fall in love. You put gas in your car. You learn names. You do plenty of things you don’t want to do. You dance. You sometimes overstay your welcome and drink too much tequila. You eat tacos. Too much queso. You wonder if you can survive on chips and salsa alone for the rest of your life. You call home. You slam doors. You let people in.

Let him in-- let him fix your car and call you beautiful. Take the long way home. Say too much. Be sappy and too romantic. Resolve some things like a Hallmark movie and leave other things unresolved like every word of a Shakespearean sonnet. Forgive, forgive, forgive.

This year: Send the text. Say the prayers. Take off your shoes to actually feel the sand. Talk to the Uber driver. Eat all the tacos. Splurge on the shoes. Leave love letters on car windshields. Write the damn book. Find slivers of this earth that feel holy and safe to you. Do every little thing fear has tried to take from you.

Lean in. Declare freedom. Do it with a vengeance.

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

January 19, 2016

Sweet Ella, 

  As I sit here holding you, rocking you, feeding you, I can't believe that you are mine. I can't believe that I have been blessed with another perfect gift. I love you with all of my heart and am so happy with the way that you fit into our little family.  You make us whole. Thank you for that. Thank you for wrapping your tiny fingers around mine just before drifting off to sleep. It's the greatest feeling in the world. It's a feeling I never want to forget.  I love you so much sweet Ella. 

Tonight your big sister was giving you "zerberts" and it was the cutest thing I have ever seen. You were laughing uncontrollably and would look at Hadley with such love in your eyes. And then she would laugh. I think it was the first time that you both were laughing together. It was the sweetest sound. I'm so happy that I get to hear that sweet sound of my daughters laughing together forever.

I just want you to know how thankful I am for you and how much I love you. You are such an amazing gift to me, your daddy and your sweet sister Hadley. I love you and your sister so much. I always will. No matter what. 

your mommy